Okay, admittedly, that title is a little extreme. JT did not literally save my life….
Let’s back up and explain some things. I am a fan girl from way back. Remember NEW KIDS on THE BLOCK, like before they were NKOTB? I do. That was my jam. I love a good boy band.
Well, let’s talk about NSYNC (the best ever!). Back when they were real popular, I didn’t know’em. I think I was listening to a lot of country back at the end of the 1990s, early 2000….anyhoo, I used to watch General Hospital , and in 1998-1999, the big couple on GH was Lucky and Liz. And their song was God Must have Spent A Little More Time on You.
At the time, I was pregnant and feeling all the emotions, and I was like, ‘this is a cool song’. And that was literally my first introduction to NSYNC. But still, I wasn’t a big fan. I mean, I was 23 and married and having a baby. I was too grown up for boy bands. (right!)
Well, fast forward to the Summer of 2001. That was the summer that our second-born daughter, Brianna died. I can’t tell you how it is to go through something like that. It was a crushing experience for me and Scott. And I was in this place that I felt like I had to take care of him and our other daughter, and I didn’t have the time or the strength to take care of myself. It was brutal. But one day, I was driving down the road, feeling all the bad feelings, and this song came on the radio. The lyrics went something like this:
When the visions around you, bring tears to your eyes
And all the surrounds you are secrets and lies,
I’ll be your strength, I’ll give you hope, keeping your faith when it’s gone
The one you should call was standing here all along.
And it was like the Heavens opened up, and a gift was presented to me. This person on the radio was sent for me. So I went home to figure out who this angel was. Of course, that heavenly voice was Justin Timberlake. And from that point on, I was all in. And here I am, 16 year later, still all in.
I know it’s a ridiculous story. I’m sure my husband and kids would rather I not tell it. But I can’t explain any other way about how buried I felt on that day, and how just hearing those lyrics in that moment gave me hope that everything was going to be okay. I know it wasn’t NSYNC that gave me comfort, but if God was using them as an instrument that day, it sure worked.